Though an army besiege me,my heart shall not fear....

what's been weighing on my mind recently...

2008-05-15T21:23:00.003-05:00

God's perfect Plan for us...
why is it so difficult for us to accept a good thing and let it fall into place? masochist much?
why are we so obsessed with being in control of our lives? we say we trust Jesus but as soon as something comes up FORGET about what He's trying to tell us, we need to do what WE think is right. i tend to do that myself. i act before i come to the Lord and ask if it's in his plan. maybe that's why things went so wrong so quickly for me? hmmm..

i have been trusting in him more lately,which is good. he takes care of me. it amazes me how he loved me first. before anyone else did,and after everyone else has stopped he'll still love me. he always takes me back,no matter how stupid and stubborn i am. he's cool like that.

" The Lord himself walks before you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.Do not be afraid;do not be discouraged." Deuteronomy 31:8

Faith. it's harder than it sounds.

~AD~

2008-04-26T00:29:00.003-05:00

i know myself.when i get hurt or upset i totally shut down with EVERYONE. i have to force myself to not do that anymore and it's hard when you know at some point you WILL get hurt again.i've been figuring out that real friendship is giving someone more than enough of yourself to be able to completely crush you,but trusting them enough not to. that's love too. i'm also finding out that good or nice things i've done in the past come back tenfold. all those hours i sat and comforted or talked to these people they're now doing for me twenty times over. You can really see it when someone agrees to go run barefoot across train tracks,at 11:30 pm, in freezing rain with you. good things ARE coming out of this along with the bad. But God makes every situation work out in our best interests. He is such a benevolent God. that verse about the sparrows in matthew keeps coming back to me. If he takes care of these small birds so well,how much more will he bless me life? am i not more important to him than the birds? The assurance of His loving care for me is coming out in ways i never expected. our God is truely an Awesome God. *quotes Veggietales* and he loves you VERY much. =)
P.S. i have no idea why but a LOT of guys were hitting on me today. it totally freaked me out. and this one chick from seattle just told me i have a nice stomach ;) rofl. she's cool though so it's ok. hahahah.

AH'V BEAN TAAGGED! omg O_O

2007-11-13T18:15:00.000-06:00

Here are the rules. (1) Each player starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves. (2) People who are tagged need to write a post on their own blog (about their eight things) and post these rules. (3) At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names. (4) Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’re tagged, and to read your blog.

1) I am OCD only about the stupid things.like the milk lid. i have to have the little ringy off and in the garbage before i can drink any of it. >.<
2)i get a Chicago accent only when i'm REALLY angry.
3)I have predicted two perfectly healthy people's deaths.correctly. <-scariest thing ever.
4)the first music i listen to defines how i will feel for the rest of the day.
5)i can't write in any type of journal for more than three days.except the joint one i have with Tina.we've had that since June.
6)At sometime i have gotten so mad i see red at each of my best friends.and none of them know!
7)if no one wakes me up,no matter when i went to sleep, i WILL sleep till 11:45am.
8) I've been security on 2 different occasions.yes me.ashlily who took 3 years of BALLET and has barely any mucles to speak of! i don't know what Rick was thinking hahah.

haha uhm.... i tag......Tina,Mesa,Jaho,Petey,Derek,Tom,Danny,aaaaaand... Eric! kbye.

well then.

2007-10-27T20:26:00.000-05:00

Well,it's been a while huh? yes.i have an excuse in hand.We got a new computer and i lost all of my links! plus i never bothered to try and remember my user name or password... *cringe* uhm ok update... i've been done with driver's ed for like...ever now(it HAS been a while since update) but as soon as i finished we had car problems and then also my dad has been working a LOOOOOOOT recently,and he's the only one in our household who can legally take me driving.therefore i only have about 2 hours logged.yes.i know i suck.hah.ummm pretty much the same deal around here,youth group is slowly getting worse sadly.right now the only reasons i'm going are for Dave's Lesson and to see some of my good friends.everything else is just...not...like it was.it used to be fun but..not so much anymore.well there's no use complaining about it so.uhmmmm i'm finding out i have some of the best friends ever which is pretty amazing.God is working so awsomely in our lives (Mesa you know what i'm talkin about,lyl).Today was pretty fun,my dad is on vacation till tuesday (i think) so we all went to the movies today.We saw Harry Potter (5th) which was pretty good.the "action" parts were actually better than expected. Ever since i found out the Dumbeldore is apparently gay i just can't look at it the same way. i don't think the charecter was planned to be gay i actually really think she just said it to get more publicity.which worked.there is really nothing in the books at ALL pointing that.it's really stupid in my opinion.what a way to ruin an interesting story,really now.bwt that's exactally what it is a STORY.reading/watching this stuff doesn't make me any less of a Christian. it's a book.as long as you know that none of it's real,no type of magic works,it's just something thought up in this woman's mind then i think you're ok.Just my opinion but hey.OOOOKKK i think that's long and rant-ish enough for now. love you all (cept for you people whom i don't) jk,lol. FIN.

Ouch

2007-07-09T20:20:00.000-05:00

I <3>

dude the zombies are swarming,can we get some spray or something?

2007-04-25T22:51:00.000-05:00

So yes i am alive(exlamation point)i've just been doing...other things*innocent look* umm yeah,i'm not gonna elaborate on those things ;) anyway,i'm now almost done with driver's ed.I just have to wait two months and get my FIFTY(50) hours in. oh and wait until my b-day which wil be after the two months anyway,lol.I finally gave in and got a myspace =( i know,i suck...majorly...extremly...sooper sooper major extremly.And even worse that's now how i communicate with most people (which is why i've been neglecting e-mail and this bloggy) well that and IM.But yeah anyway don't worry i still love you! (speaking with my poor blog) also i'm excited because VBS is coming uuuup(exclamation point) it's in july(exclamation point) AND(2exlamation points) OH OH AND(ex points again) CORNERSTONE(3 ex points) ohmygee(ex point again)lol,i love C-stone.see,you only have to go once and you're hooked.lol,ok here's some other stuff i love.
1) Smarties
2)hugs from behind,the sneaky kind ^_^(aka "Glomps")
3)getting snail mail,lol
4)When people tell me they love me =)
5)Being sarcasticly hilarious
ok that's all. i'll post again soon,kk. and Elyse,my blogging trooper,i am going to e-mail you tomorrow seing as it's 11:13 and my brother is forcing me off the compy XP cyas doll.
P.S. it keeps telling me exclamation points are not allowed,thus the (ex point)s.yeah,lame i know

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2007-03-11T23:53:00.000-05:00

dude,i have almost nothing to post! except that i'm now in possibly the worst driver's ed class in the history of the earth. My teacher is sooooo wierd/creepy/insane. And she loves geese...with a passion. It's scary really. Yeah, our video in class was..... OPRAH!! oh my fregging gee areyoukiddingme?? you ask.the answer would be...no. anyways...you people who haven't e-mailed me in a while E-MAIL ME!!!!! lol,ttfn!

Math makes my mouth hurt =(

2007-02-09T16:24:00.000-06:00

I'm tierd XP grar....oh gee i have so many anime i need to catch up on,i never really finished Bleach.It's really really boring here,i don't have anything to doooooo.I did school and that's about it..oh i watched The Matrix too.Hmmmm,i hope we can go to Cornerstone this year,i didn't get to go last time so i'm missing it twice as much.It was majorly fun when i did go.I can't wait until they put out the whole list of bands!!!! My Da was joking around saying he wouldn't go unless Third Day was going to play,lol.I'm exctied about the bands they have on there right now though.I mean come on,Switchfoot,Underoath,tobyMac,Emery,Anberlin,Disciple,Family Force 5,the Dizmas,Flatfoot 56.It's gonna majorly rock.I'm just sad they don't have Project on there...YET!...hopefully,haha.We have a much much better camera for this year too,lol.I can't even begin to imagine how many pictures i would take with that thing.Last time i only had some cruddy disposable cameras,so i couldn't zoom or anything even though i was pretty much at the front for all the bands i went to see,it was still lame.Most of my pictures were super crappy.I have a bunch that my friend took of different band members and i that look really nice but she had her digital with her,so that pretty much explains that.Well,i'm going to a play tomorrow so i have to go find something clean to wear,lol.

Duuuuude

2007-02-04T01:16:00.000-06:00

I'm really excited right now,because one of my favorite webcomics just started updating again after an 8 month hiatus. Yay! i updated my profile too,cause i was really bored.I saw an awsome shirt today,it said Legolas is my House Elf,lolol. I was dying!....of..laughter..ya know..umm..yeah.Anakin Skywalker is staring at me and it's really creepy...maybe i should just turn the cup around...*does just that* ahh much better!Oh crud,now Darth Vader is staring at me! i dunno which is creepier!! I want this bumper sticker i saw once like LAST YEAR!! Jeeze that was such a long time ago! anyway it said "Come to the dark side....We have cookies!" i was like OH..My..Gee..then i died......*looks at your disbeliving face* WHAT!?!? I got better! XP DUDE!!! I just got up to get a glass of extra refreshing milk and i totally almost kiiled my self on my little brother's skatebored!!!!...In case you didn't notice i'm seeing how many times i can die within one post..so far by my count it's 35....what's your count? hehe.Aww,man i really wanna go out and take some pictures...i haven't done that in sooooooo long =( the Capn is at a Leper/Manufracture concert right now...i didn't have any money soooo i didn't go,lol.Don't you think it's hilarious that the French have perfected the art of running away?? they have exactally 1 (one) martial art...it's called Parkour,and pretty much the whole point of it is to keep running no matter what's in your way.hmmmm,lol.I'm not saying it's stupid or anything,it's actually really cool,and is used in a ton of games and movies and stuff.It looks pretty nifty too.I just think it's pretty funny. I should learn Parkour....what do you think???Dude i am so out of shape just thinking about ME learning any kind of sport/martial art is laughable!I should learn kenpo or something where i can wear those HUGE pants! those things are so sweet! jk,once again,laughable! ohhh man...a girl can dream can't she??? lol

Fun Times

2007-01-20T12:06:00.000-06:00

Man,My friends are either really awsome or complete dorks,lol.I can never choose between those two!I went to a basketball game with some of those same friends last night,and oh my gee! it was so..i don't even know how to discribe it,lolol! one of my friends came to pick my lil bro and i up in a tux(he was in the choir thing),but then we he dropped us off he was in his pajamas! What is that??!!!?? haha,after he sang he went and changed out of the tux. As he got out of the car he was like,oh no! i look like a hobo! it was really funny,cause he actually did.And the other one was in the pep band,so he was sitting over there the whole game.I did get to talk to him on the way there/home,so that was cool.well,after he changed my one friend(monty) left his tux,and backpacks in one of the other rooms.Well,the janitor locked the doors while we were watching the game,soooo he wasn't very happy,lol.The other friend (Vlad) had left something in there also i guess,because when Monty was searching for him he had some guy give him a paper clip,aaaand he picked the lock on the door.lololol,Monty walked by and saw Vlad in there,he was like how'd you get in there??????Vlad was just like oh i picked the lock.My brother and i just looked at eachother and burst out laughing,cause we have the wierdestest friends ever! lol.I'm going to another friend's b-day party on tuesday so i'll prolly post about that then.I was just talking to her on IM,and she was babbling about being a mouse and no one can hear her and then she made her text size huge and was like OHHHH I FEEL LIKE I"M YELLING AT YOUUUUUU!!!!! I was just like,ooooh my geeee XD

Happy New Year!

2007-01-01T21:27:00.000-06:00

OH MY GEE!! new years was majorly fun.We had a lock-in at youth group,it was hilarious.the theme was the 70's,and a bunch of us dressed up for a costume contest,lol.Some of the costumes were really good actually.I pretty much played games and ran around the church all night.OH,we played this game called jailbreak,where there's about 5 "cops" and everyone else are...convicts i guess,ha.It's played like hide-and-go-seek in the dark,but then us cops (yes i was one)have to go search out everyone else and bring them to the jail(a taped off corner of the room) .Also if anyone who isn't in the jail can run by and tag people to get them out of jail.It's was madness,lol.My friend Tina(aka tuna) was also a cop,and she was running at Ben(one of the convicts) and he was trying to run past her and they ran into eachother...head-on.Tina was wearing her glasses,so they gave her a big gash across her forehead/eye area,yet somehow her glasses were perfectly fine.HSe and Ben were both ok though.I didn't sleep the whole night,i don't know how i did it but i did!I pretty much hung out with my friends the whole time,we played 20 Q,Catch Phrase,cards,Mancala,shut-the-box just a ton of random stuff.I also got a free Hoodie (thanks Monty!),lol. It was really fun though,and I can't wait till next year's,lol.

I'm lame!

2006-12-04T17:30:00.000-06:00

As i'm sure most of you already knew. I majorly suck at posting on a regular basis.Regular basis being more than once a month.Well news news....We bought an awsome camera from one of the guys my Da works with,it's pretty sweet.Oh My Da got a maneger's job at IHB so now he has a schedual,which majorly roxzorz.He has to work on Christmas Eve and Christmas Day,which sucks.He gets home at 6pm on CHristmas Eve so we'll prolly have to open presents and all that jazz then.We rearranged all our funiture today to make room for the Christmas tree,which i expect we will be getting tomorrow or the day after.We usually go to this little tree farm and cut one down. And now some random quotes from friends that prolly only make sense to meeee! Those are always fun,lol.

"Girl!.....Boy?" - Salty Dog
"Give us the shoe or the glove gets it!" - Tuna
"Duck-glue!" - Monty
"Welchums,If ya know what i mean,On E-bay,Cause that's how we roll." Chrissyzor
(While contemplating why one kid was nicknamed Toast) "Cause if you put butter on 'im it'd melt ralla faast" - Marissazzz

ok,that was fun. In other news i am really really pissed at Rex Grossman.I mean WHAT THE HECK IS WRONG WITH THAT DUDE!!!??? Some of those passes there weren't even any Bears around there!! Grar!!! My new Favorite player,though, Is now Devin Hester.That kid Rocks! sadly thought He and Brian don't quite make up for Rex the Hex >=( Grar....grar...
......WhY dO i RaNdOmLy CaPiTaLiZe LeTtErS iN tHe MiDdLe Of WoRdS?/?/?......

ZOMBIEZORZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-11-21T13:59:00.000-06:00

Zombies! We have Freggin Zombies living (or half way so) In Cambodia!
OH MY GEE!! I think it's time to bring out your chainsaws people! Might want to grab your shotgun and copy of "The Zombie Survival Guide" too.Zombies,Dagnabbit!

a title eludes me...hmmm

2006-10-20T15:19:00.000-05:00

ok soooo,that Bears game was awsome,i'm very happy (unlike the Coach of the Cardnials). Yes,yes i'll move on XP Youth Group was fun on wednesday even though it was rainy.I finally got to see Heather after like a month and a half,Yay!She cut her hair too,it looks really cute I like it.Annnd i got to see my Salty Dogs,woot! It was fun hanging out with my marshmallowy,sugar coated,chick shaped friends. hehe. I'll try and write more later,ttyl.

2006-10-12T16:20:00.000-05:00

Ok,so who (out of the 2 people who read this thing) is a Bears fan? None! You all live in Seattle?!? BAH!! XD lol.Five and 0! Is it just me or can you hear the Superbowl Shuffle too?yeah yeah,it's too soon to be saying all that jazz,but i can't help it!

Hey,I got my hair cut yesterday! not really short,just layered and a sort of bangs type thingy,lol.Nate and Derek were mad but i don't really care what they say,haha.

mmmm,me Ma and i just made apple pie,and it's in the oven right now.Our house smells like pie!Yum....

So yeah i know,i got bad with teh updates again *hangs head* Oh well.

......i'm gonna go eat pie now...cyas

Extreeeeeme! Extreme daaaaays!

2006-09-24T17:01:00.000-05:00

Man i love tobyMac. he played Jesus Freak and extreme days as an encore at World Pulse Fest.It was awsome!!! Yes,i know DC Talk originally did those songs,i'm not compleatly retarded,lol.Oh i also love Kids In The Way!!! I'm listening to Yahoo Radio so yeah.....Church was awsome this morning.We had a guest speaker,Dun Gordy,he was great.He was really funny too.They had a potluck afterwards so the Capn and I stayed for that,I dunno about him but i had a lot of fun.The Schnoors brought Lee too,dude i haven't seen him in like 2 years! He and Tina together were HILARIOUS!! It was much much funs.Hey i'm doin pretty good with teh updating,wouldn't you agree? Well,better than i did with the other one XP hehe. Meh! I'm hungry,and it's dinner times. cyas!

and here we have the great wall of snot-rags,built in 2006!

2006-09-18T18:07:00.000-05:00

GRRRRRRRRRRRRR!! I hate hate hate being sick! hate it! Now as you might have guessed i'm sick *kri* :'( Oh and i also hate hate hate hate albuterol.I would rather have to drink 5 gallons of robutussin(sp? we didn't have any so i couldn't check) than one capful of albuterol.Also it's horrible to be a homeschooler when you're sick,cause you still have to do your work :( man,this sucks I doubt i'll be able to go to Youth Group on wednesday either.And i need to talk to my Salty Dog too,i heard there was major flooding where around where they live.* sigh* I think i'll go sit in the used-kleenex castle i've built and read my books,ciao ciao

P.S. sorry i'm being so lame,i get grumpy when i'm sick.....

Renessance Faire

2006-09-04T17:50:00.000-05:00

So yeah we went to Ren fair yesterday.It was the last day and there were a ton of people,it was way better last year.It wasn't very fun.We saw "Dirk and Guido the swordsmen".They were pretty funny.The prices were insane though,3.50 for a cup of pop! As i said insane.The costumes they were selling were pretty cool though.They had like dresses and cloaks and shirts and boots and just a ton of stuff.there were a bunch of people who were way out of the timeline though like dressed up as pirates and harem girls and stuff,they didn't make much sense.Trav got a wooden sword and sheath and i got a henna tattoo of a pheonix or falcon thing on my arm,it looks neat.I thought it was interesting to watch her draw it.But yeah all in all i could have done without.

In other news Steve Irwin is dead.I was surprised yet also not when i heard that.Apparently he was stung by a sting ray in the heart.Only 2 other people have ever died that way.Hmmm...

Attack on Rue Plumet and Javert's Arrival

2006-08-31T16:06:00.000-05:00

thats what i'm listining to right now.Who besides Peter knows what those songs are from? Anyway,My Dad took us (my bros and i) to the shooting range today.Such fun!! We shot bows not guns.I definantly like the compound better than the recurve,cause i suck at aiming with the recurve.Maybe it was just because they had a wierd thingy where the arrow lays...lies....whateve!.I almost got a Robin Hood a couple of times,and i did get a bull's eye more than once!i have my target paper on my closet door so i can throw stuffs at it,lol.It was good times.Youth Group yesterday was fun too,even though my salty dog wasn't there =( *kri* i dunno where they were..We went out afterwards and then Benny called cause his car broke down!Poor Scrappy he has no luck with cars *shakes head* and now i'd lie to end with a shout out to my good friend Chrissy! Chihuahua,dude Chihuahua *nods*

Hang Night=fun/crazy times dudes

2006-08-26T15:33:00.000-05:00

Bob Switzer!!! Bob Switzer's guitar!! Lick your batteries,it fixes them!!! Fruity time!!! Hit people on the head with frozen corndogs!!Count down to Stefy's birthday on the microwave clock!!!Talk to many many new people!!!

Ahhhh that,in esssence,was hang night.Sounds like fun eh? well,it was! Especially since it was open mic night,lol.To be sure,crazyness ensued,lol.Lots of lil childrens singing.Bob Switzer's daughter,Sadie Switzer,played guitar and sang a song she wrote.She did really good for an 12ish year old(i think she was 12ish).But yeah it was crazy fun.I hung out with a bunch of people who i didn't and some i still don't know thier names,lol. It was awsome.

Aaaaand i told two people about my blog,woot for me! by this time on my other one nobody knew about it,so i would say i'm doing pretty good,haha.so anyway i'm gonna go do other stuffs now,dattebayo!

mmm,that new blog smell!

2006-08-25T00:22:00.000-05:00

Soooo,yeah i get a new blog! Mum and Da said i could start posting again,so i decided that i wanted to start with a clean slate.therefor the new blog was started.it feels kinda nifty right now cause nobody else knows about it,if only for a little while,It's alllll mine.Hopefully i won't take as long telling others about this one as i did with my first one,lol.I dunno why i never wanted to tell people about it *wonders*.maybe i'm just wierd like that,thats my excuse for everything,lol,Oh i'm just odd like that.And it works too cause most of the time i am just odd like that,hehe.Well,must sleep now my fellow personalities,g'night and dattebayo!
P.S. one of 'em is a pirate! haha =D