i know myself.when i get hurt or upset i totally shut down with EVERYONE. i have to force myself to not do that anymore and it's hard when you know at some point you WILL get hurt again.i've been figuring out that real friendship is giving someone more than enough of yourself to be able to completely crush you,but trusting them enough not to. that's love too. i'm also finding out that good or nice things i've done in the past come back tenfold. all those hours i sat and comforted or talked to these people they're now doing for me twenty times over. You can really see it when someone agrees to go run barefoot across train tracks,at 11:30 pm, in freezing rain with you. good things ARE coming out of this along with the bad. But God makes every situation work out in our best interests. He is such a benevolent God. that verse about the sparrows in matthew keeps coming back to me. If he takes care of these small birds so well,how much more will he bless me life? am i not more important to him than the birds? The assurance of His loving care for me is coming out in ways i never expected. our God is truely an Awesome God. *quotes Veggietales* and he loves you VERY much. =)
P.S. i have no idea why but a LOT of guys were hitting on me today. it totally freaked me out. and this one chick from seattle just told me i have a nice stomach ;) rofl. she's cool though so it's ok. hahahah.